Friday, September 17, 2004

Happy Birthday, Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary, Mom and Dad! Happy Birthday to Inday!
Taking a break from thesis and insanity-inducing masters class to greet my parents on their anniversary. Has reading Mitch Albom been extremely appropriate for the occasion?

Inday, zhu ni shengri kuai le! If I could just drag Jerry Yan all the way from Taiwan to Manila and wrap him up for you on your birthday, I would do that. I'll just stay "One Meter" away from him though! On second thought, he looks pretty good in yellow wrapping paper with a pink bow tied around his head!

Hmmm...I miss writing here. *crosses fingers* When I'm done with all of this, I will write again! I must! I have to!

P.S. Hey mom and dad! Click on the animated picture of Hua Ze Lei below.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Oh Baby!



Last Sunday, my family and I watched the musical "Baby" at the Meralco Theater. I was particularly excited. After all, I have been a fan of Lea Salonga ever since I was in nappies. One of the first lines I could sing was "Be brave little one." In grade school, I could memorize the entire Miss Saigon soundtrack...although my mom had to monitor that I refrained from saying the cuss words. I high school, her tapes filled my music rack and I kept a framed photo of her in my bedroom. When the year 2000 was ushered in, I was a couple of meters away from her. In college, I made use of a laminated bookmark with her picture when I studied. For my 17th birthday, I asked my mother to bring me to one of her musicals as a gift. I sang an a capella version of "On My Own" when I auditioned for the university choir. When I read that she fixed toilet paper with the loose side up, I did the same with my own roll in the bathroom. I listen to her Christmas album whenever I fix the Christmas tree. And most recently, I bawled like a baby during her wedding.
I was particularly excited about seeing "Baby." The last time I saw Lea on stage was during the Manila stint of Miss Saigon. "Baby" was going to be a lot different from "Miss Saigon." For one thing, it didn't involve a lot of guns and flying helicopters. I was actually surprised with the set. Aside from big cutouts of buildings and houses painted in pastel colors, there was only a king-sized bed in the middle of the stage. And of course, I was excited with the prospect of seeing Lea pregnant!



MY TICKET!!! And yes, I want it all!!!
The play actually covers the travails of three women with the stork. Lea plays Lizzie, a college junior who gets herself pregnant. Her boyfriend offers to marry her but she adamantly refuses saying "I don't wanna get married because I don't wanna get divorced." Menchu Lauchengco-Yulo plays Irene, a woman in her 40s with four children in their twenties. Irene thinks motherhood has finally bidden her farewell when she discovers she is actually pregnant. Agot Isidro is Pam, a basketball aficionado who has been married for two years and is desperate for a child.
All in all, I LOVED "BABY." Probably blame it on Lea but everything about the musical was wonderful. Of course, I always had goosebumps whenever Lea came on stage. Her commanding stage presence was overpowering and her crystal-clear voice was breathtakingly beautiful. I particularly loved her last song in the first part which was something about her baby's birth being part of the entire cycle of life with her playing the same role her mother and grandmother used to play. I swear I did not move an inch during the entire song...as if a tiny nudge of my finger or the slighest twist of my head would break the spell she had cast.
I liked the songs, I particularly enjoyed the dialogue and humor but I definitely loved the story the most. Lizzie, Irene and Pam all had different thoughts about a baby. Lizzie was having second thoughts since she thought motherhood would mean giving up on her personal ambitions. Irene did not want the baby because I felt she wanted a bit of her life back. Pam was ecstatic to have one but a baby seemed to evade her. At some point, they all felt scared, lost and desperate. The baby was a huge burden. Just the thought of it was stifling. The baby weighed Lizzie, Irene and Pam down. However in the end, the mood changed. Lizzie realized that there were some things worth gambling for and some things worth losing. Irene realized that another chance meant a new start and a fresh change...though it pretty much seemed like an old Bee Gees revival. And as for Pam, giving up was never going to be an option. All of these events unfolded at the precise moment that Lizzie was about to give birth and when she did, everything made perfect sense. With the wails of a flailing baby, a new hope and a new promise was born. For someone who seems to have lost reason to believe in the beauty which the world claims to have, "Baby" offered a good reason to start looking again.

Wednesday, July 7, 2004

Lost in the Forest

One of the most difficult hurdles to be faced by graduate students is encapsulated in one short word - thesis. It seems like it's everybody's nightmare. To call it a nightmare is a severe understatement but then my limited vocabulary could not conjure anything worse. To call it hell would also post a potential problem - what then would you call anything worse? Or is thesis really the very incarnation of evil itself?

My friend Doi was held up momentarily by her thesis. Let's just say, the summer of 2004 would forever be etched in her memory as those days when she abandoned much needed rest and relaxation to hang out with several jars full of shrimp eggs, watching them hatch. My sister is also doing her thesis at the moment. From all the economic jibberish she keeps on mouthing even in her sleep, I understand that she will be doing something on brain drain and trade liberalization. I think I would be a perfect specimen for her thesis. After all, I am as brain drained as my country can be.

Just last Sunday, I was singing a song while I was getting dressed for church. The words went "Be strong and take courage for the Lord will go before you." A few days later, I'm more shaken than a rattlesnake's tail. The words bring comfort but I still feel the apprehension all about me. But then I know the words only give encouragement. The hard work has to be done. When school started, I was in a meadow, trying to decide which forest I should enter to get to the other side. I made a decision and entered a forest of my choice. Now I'm lost in the forest. Gotta get back to the drawing table because I now need to find a tree in the middle of this jungle.

Sunday, July 4, 2004

And There Was the Beginning

Apprehension and yes, even fear. For the first time in my life, I can actually say that I do not know what lies ahead. The future is uncertain, as many have claimed in an endless fashion. 21 years old and a graduate student...I do not know if life can get any harder and anymore crazier than this.

I cannot explain this but ever since I was a kid, I had always wanted to know what it was like being 21. The age isn't completely fascinating. 18 would be more memorable. 13 would be intriguing and turbulent. 30 could perhaps signal desperation. 50 would be like the California gold rush. And 80? I could only think of a sepulchre for that. But 21? It's forgettable...but not for me.

So here I start...barely 21 years old...at the point in time that I have always wanted to be in. As I sit here and write this, I wonder why. The answer comes in almost a snap. I had written the words down before. And I need to hear them once more. Fear. Apprehension. I'll never look at them the same way again.